Covetous

Dreams...
Fading.
Dissipating into a vast nothingness.
All my aspirations
Are now gone since I can acknowledge
The horrifying truth.

I am,
For the first time,
Totally and utterly alone.
No one sees who I really am,
No one cares who the person inside is.
They do not notice that I long for someone else,
And as sanctuary, I find love for others
Who do not need it
Nearly as much as I do.

But they,
The gifted and lucky,
Stand joyous in front of me,
Laughing, touching, falling...
Into the realm which is known as love.

But they,
The hopeful and wondrous,
Seem blindly oblivious to the fact
That all I ever needed,
All my heart desires,
Is what I lack,

And they have.